What a day

So, here it is almost midnight and I am beat. Today has been an extremely long day!

To start with, I am still sick and taking more drugs. So my system is in overload. I get to my first client and I was shaking so badly that I thought I should go to the ER right away. I called my best friend, Lori and she told me to sit down. Oh, and I was also feeling very nauseous. Not a good combo when you have a baby in your arms! After sitting down for a few minutes, I forced myself to feel better.

My clients were great today. First the 6 month old twins had their checkup and also shots. Poor things.

Then in the afternoon with my second family I made Play Doh with Blake(age 6). He loved it! It is really easy to make. Next week we are going to make edible Play Doh. That should be fun:)

My third client of the day was this evening. After dinner, baths, reading bed time stories to the kids & putting them down, I was able to watch the Biggest Loser. The parents had a dinner to attend so it was nice and quiet.

Watching the Biggest Loser was actually kind of bittersweet for me. Phil got eliminated. It was also his 20 year wedding anniversary. He surprised his wife with a ring and a vow renewal ceremony. They said how much they loved each other, how they were best friends. How my heart longed to have that soul mate. Why is finding love so hard? I have been pondering this question for quite some time now. I so want to love my best friend, share life with, do things together, be there for each other, help others, have a family and show the world that we love each other! I am trying so hard to trust that His timing is perfect, but I am getting restless. I need to be patient and wait for the "one". The "one" who I can love, who loves me back, who we share everything with, the one that we can grow together, the one that I can show how much I appreciate him, the one who is ready . Lord, please give me a patient heart. May this waiting period in my life be used to grow closer to you. Help me to trust that you have a plan for my life.

Love, it has been a life long question. One I am sure I write more about. For now, I am me and me alone. Alone to focus on being the best person I can be. To help others in need. For now, time to go to bed....sweet dreams.

~peace~